SINCE I AM HAVING DIFFICULTIES ARRANGING MY TEMPLATE HERE IN BLOGDRIVE [DUE TO LOADS OF SCHOOL ACTIVITIES] I HAVE DECIDED TO MOVE TO BLOGSPOT. MY PREVIOUS HOME FOR BLOGGING. VISIT http://pastelwinkle.blogspot.com. i'm starting with a new blog again. sorry my readers!!!

okay... i'm back with blogging! sorry i wasn't able to update my blog... few days from now and its already one month unupdated so i decided to go blogging again. actually, i'm hooked with my creative writing notebook which serves as my journal. you know, my privacy is spread throughout the world if i would still continue to tell everything about me. (on the second thought, its my decision to have my life posted on the net! *winks*)

anyway, almost one month... its been ages. i must say i have been very busy with school works. i want to surrender. i thought the seniors were just joking when some of them are telling us that junior life isn't that easy. i do agree with you! you know, our teachers seem to be enjoying giving us loads of burden but you can't blame them, they're just doing their thing as our mentors. the initiative still depends on us if we are going to work for our grades or not.

its our off campus. but it seems that its supposed to be called off classroom. why? because we are still dwelling at school. stucked. loitering around the campus waiting for a shimmer of hope to get out of hell-SCHOOL. i'll narrate what happened to me during the two school days.

MONDAY
flag ceremony as usual. i'm late. good. i reached school at 6:52am. good thing the flag ceremony hasn't started yet. so i was in a hurry to get in our class' line. there. all set. i'm no longer late. but the fact remains that i reached school at 6:52am. hahaha.

ma'am mayo asked us to stay while the rest of the year levels went to their respective classrooms. i thought we'll be discussing about our off campus. but heck-we discussed about how dirty our rooms were last week. haha. (well, we had talked about our off campus after the long disciplinary semon) when ma'am mayo told us that the principal had been cleaning our rooms during the suspension of classes, i must admit... i can't help but laugh. but of course i kept it to myself during the talk. carmela and company had been laughing hesterically. (or should i say, they laugh that way! that's why i like them. i like the way they laugh! its no joke!) after the talk, the juniors were asked to occupy the science labs since the oral defense for research will be held at the rooms of the juniors. first, our class was asked to occupy the chem room together with darwin and becquerel. eventually, we were asked to move at the IS lab.

nothing really nice happened. i spent the whole day with pristine, nadine and anna k. that's all.. shared stories. read books. ate our lunch. went home. that's our activity that day.

oh before i move to my next story, hannah and kenneth gave me a spanish name. i must say, it is hilarious (*ehem, ma'am hilario*)

its... tentenenen.... GRAZIELLITA. wahahaha... kadire. haha.. parang pang telenovela chuva! but its funny, isn't it?

here are other spanish names translated by hannah and kenneth. have a good laugh!
PRISTILIA-pristine
SERGIO ARCADIO-sir sd
ANNA MARIA-ms. marie
JOLITA-ate jola
HANNAH RUTA-hannah
ROBERTO-kenneth
ESTRELLA-shaira
LORENZO-lawrence
PAULITA ELENITA-paula

that's all i can remember that hannah and kenneth had told me. haha! they even had a mini telenovela for ms. marie and sir sd. ms. marie was like "hoy narinig ko 'yan ha!" haha... by the way, thanks for the pili nuts ms. marie!

TUESDAY
i'm late again. i arrived at 7:04am. i was really nervous because i had the feeling this morning that our off campus will not be possible again. i thought ma'am erpelo would teach us that day. but no!!! they told us we'll be having our off campus. to be exact... we were supposed to be leaving at 12noon. but oh no!!! no off campus again.

a tiring activity was given to us by ms. marie but we can't blame her. it would keep us from loitering at the school grounds.

hey. i have to leave now! my mom pressures me to do so.

bye!

reposted entry from 11/11/04:i can't study!!! why??? because i feel going out everyday!!! haha... imagine, i have been going out everyday, except tuesday. so my 500php is down to 20php. nice nice. Ü gosh... where am i going to get money now? TT_TT mik² and i went to SM yesterday... we canvassed prices for the christmas gifts we'll be buying. Ü waaaah! i have to save 1000php+ before christmas... i want to buy lots of things. plus gifts for special people... etc. etc...this day is tiring, i must say. imagine, our groupmates did nothing for our project. except for nadine, kylie and me. kayla colored one illustration board and left without our knowledge. the boys just played computer games. yeah yeah. they're so nice! i'm sorry to say these things but it's really irritating. >_< not to mention, prinsipe bantugan's pop-ups are about 18?! imagine... then there are only 3 of us who's doing it!!! very nice.. what else... yeah. i've been waitiing for 48 years, and yet our AP reviewer hasn't reached me. i think ma'am erpelo has lost my e-mail again. oh please... i've been spending 100php for internet already. naku kung di ko lab yang AP, suko na ko.. waaaaah. daddy, hurry up with the hard disk. you're wasting my money!!! it's a hard saved money of mine. mwahahahah... ^_^ this entry may be short but i want you to know that i'm getting speechless. i don't want to share every single happening of my life here. i must say they're too private. i'll be telling it next time if we are already close enough, ok? Ü 

ok.. it is the second day of our sembreak. nothing fun is happening. i'd rather go to school and have my lessons. i can't even study my lessons at home. it's so boring!!! i'm sure it won't stay that long if i study now. maybe i'll do my studies on thursday. maybe at least i would remember something during the tests.

yesterday, i went to school... for journ! uhmm.. i wrote two articles and hopefully it would be published. Ü uhmm.. i stayed at school until 6:15 in the evening.. pristine and i were planning to do something evil yesterday. well i think, it is not so evil. we are just fighting for my right? ayt pristine? it's really unfair... we should do something about it.

what else. last saturday... we had our MTAP. it was so boring... whew! but i enjoyed my filipino groupmates company. we even ate tiramisu flavored ice cream! Ü enjoy! even though we only finished 3 people. at least we have accmplished something. i'll e-mail you the scenes tomorrow nadine! ok? by the way, my tita fe had called me to that day. Ü happy. maybe the reason she called me because she doesn't want me to spend P60 for a long distance call. P60 doesn't cost much as long as you'll spend it for your love one right?

uhmm.. well... i really have nothing to say this time. i've got to read great expectations. it's really thick!!! i also have to read sense and sensibility. i can't waste my mom's money like that if i won't read it.

bye for now..

classes suspended. that's nice. at least i was able to watch my batchmates' (on my former school) cherring competition. Ü the juniors did a great job but unfortunately they lost. i feel sorry for them. cheska said that someone cried when they learned that they lost. awww... XD but that's part of life you have to fail sometimes so that you'll learn.

by the way, i went to scs with cheska and her two other classmates. loren, ate laura, clara, princess, sarah and isabelle were also there. yeah! we are almost complete! clairean xientians are really good! Ü wiiiiii!

deped is so irritating. why aren't they organizing things well. they're making the students spin around like tops! we are not tops... ayt? Ü

this morning, the third years only had one teacher during the roll call of the teachers. it was only miss marie who was present. ma'am erpelo is late same with ma'am capaque. it's only the master... master marie (hey dia! it's your line!)

i wonder if we have current events test tomorrow. i have called up miss erpelo's home but the person who answered said that she is not yet home. i think she is busy with her shopping spree! (i also wonder if her money always gets plenty. i hope my pocket will be the same... XP)

ok, i have to research for current events test tomorrow. i also have to study bio.. so i won't be flunking the subject again.

goodbye to everyone! *cheers*

super na-abandon na itong blog ko. it seems i don't have any time for you my dear blog. i was suppose to have an entry last friday but my mom was in a hurry to go home (because our computer's hard disk was broken so my dad's looking for a replacement). there. so i have to use the computer at internet shops. ok, we have a problem at our classroom. it is regarding our class' behavior. we're dead... really especially with our two advisers. actually, our other adviser doesn't want to handle us as her advisory class because of what we did. i don't want to talk about it here. i'm so tired of talking about it over and over again. sembreak na!!! woppeeee!!! but i went to school. hehe... ma'am erpelo has a new hair cut. weeeh! she looks prettier. i even asked her to read my doodles. but of course i'll keep it private. ask me about it if we are close enough, ok? Ü what else? i think, ms. marie is still angry with our class.. when i greeted her, she gave a cold look at me. oh godness.. for pete's sake. all of them (our teachers!) not only her are angry to our class. it seems hopeless. i'll try to have an entry tomorrow. i'll be watching a cheering competition tomorrow on my former alma mater. au revoir! Ü

oohhh! its been a long time since i had my last entry. wooh, i didn't really expect that junior year would be this hard. i barely got a time to sleep. 3-4 hours would be enough sleep for me this time..

wak! madrama ako. but that's the truth.

uhmm.. what am i going to tell? uhh.. oh yes. last wednesday... we went to a seminar at commonwealth. i forgot the exact name of the place but i know its beside human rights. its a long day seminar so i got a chance to be excused from school activities but i didn't expect that our teachers would be giving us loads of schoolworks the day i left for UNESCO. bad.. real bad.

ok, the seminar was all about space exploration. Ü it was interesting, well except the time when mr. li jing had his one hour lecture. i didn't understand anything with what he's telling. he was eating the words he's telling. >_<. dan² was almost asleep. pebbles even asked me to pinch her to keep her awake. only sir sd was interested (i think, with mr. li jing's talk)

oh.. i really liked george whitesides' lecture. he's fun!!! really.. and we even had a journey to outerspace but actually it is just a video of the outerspace. hehe.. i like his remarks.. and he even said goodbye to me after i was able to have a look on the telescopes.

pebbles found her dad, ms. dennis stone. he even called her daughter pebbles. hehe.. fun fun! my day last wednesday was real fun!!!

today, we have just finished our activity in english. i wonder what will ms. marie would be telling us if she will learn that we have just done it today. wahehe.. patay-patay kami!

at last... i have received something from my favorite tita and tito in canada. money! yes... but i don't ask for money... all i want is a call from them. that's it. that would satisfy me. but well, at least they remembered my special day. but i still feel sad.. alone.. oh my. would someone make me happy? even for a while? it is not too much to ask right?

oh.. so many questions... so many things to do. i don't know why is life like this? i know it's part of it but why is it always like this..

by the way, here's a poem of mine. some people liked this one. it is even included in this year's school paper. i hope you'll like it too. this is included in the VoicesNet Anthology Book 10 in USA. the book costs $20. where on earth will i get it? here it is:

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Solitude

 

Alone and no one to be with

Can’t even move about or writhe

You seem to carry the world’s burden

Perceive not, Garden of Eden.

 

You are the only one who bears the pain

Heart’s clenching, mind’s insane

All you can do is cry

And can’t help but to ask “why?”

 

No one joins you in sympathy

You can’t help to have antipathy

Anxiety strikes you too

Vengeance is what you want to do.

 

There’s no place for pride and haughtiness

Stand up and search for happiness

Give love a chance

To have an acquaintance.

 

Then you’ll be a lot joyous

When you let love in your life, enormous

Then you will wear a smile

And send off solitude, goodbye.

 

oh!!! what kind of internet connection do we have??? what a dumb computer our home has!!!
why can't it simply connect so that i'll be able to use it noooowwwww???!!! that's not so
much to ask, right???

ok, it was my birthday 4 days ago. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! i'm sorry if my entry is such a
nuisance. i just have to release the ire i have in my heart. look, instead of having a nice
birthday celbration... i had bad luck. want to know them, well here they are. i'm really quite
sad because of these bad luck and some people's offensive actions. oh whatever!

 1. sir sd wasn't able to join us due to eco meeting.
 2. ms. hermano wasn't able to come too because of himig xientia's practice
 3. my favorite aunt, i think, forgot my birthday. it is so painful for me.
 4. ms. paningbatan, mistakenly, thought it was my birthday last september 24, instead of 29!
 5. i touched a phlegm of an "individual" yeah, i know it is gross but it is an accident!!! i was shouting hysterically because it's so yucky!!! good thing ms. marie has a sanitizer.
 6. ms. marie totally forgot about my birthday although i told her about it 2 days before my birthday! (bumawi naman siya, kaya ok na rin!)
 7. i thouched a bubblegum under the table in greenwich.
 8. i saw ma'am hilario while waiting for ms. marie at SM Annex. >_<
 9. ma'am cada, too, forgot about my birthday.
 10. the place, where i should celebrated my birthday was under ronovation.

see how luck i am??? what kind of birthday do i have??? such a trash. i was crying because of disappointment. am i such a disappointment, so that people would take me for granted. i was really hurt with what happened. there are more than 10 not-so-nice things that happened to me that day. it seems that the time doesn't want me to get old yet. but why in this manner???

but to sum up my day, well it was quite good. i got to know ma'am cada well. i've got to share some stories with my bestfriend, pristine. i had a laugh-out-loud moment with the GC's and Rachelle. i've got to hear ms. marie's stories... and i can say, it brought the GC's and ms. marie closer. she's really nice. she is not only a good mentor, but also a friend, a second mother and a storyteller! hehe.. ^_^ i lab you ma'am marie... este ms. marie pala. (even you have forgotten the "birthday thing" of mine,
it is still ok.)

then tita zeny also called me to greet me happy birthday. how sweet of her! Ü my first greeter for september 29 is nadine. she greeted me at 12:00:09 am. she even alarmed her phone to greet me.

maybe my birthday was a "disaster" but at least i still had fun...

tita fe, i'm still waiting for your card... really. hope you can read this.. Ü

i feel alone... goodness!

i'll add another entry later!

okay, new blog... new world. i'm really moving in here. i was not able to update my blog in geocities for two months. yes, you heard it right. two long months. imagine, i survived without releasing my angst and irritations. that's an achievement! harhar. now, i'm back with a so-terrible, never-mind blog! i'll not be able to update this or make a skin of my own due to my schedule. third year is not-so-easy. it's a near-to-death year. when i say near-to-death, i mean it! so you believe me, or else!